Nothing’s right, nothing’s wrong Either here or you’re gone But all it takes is a clear, keen view And you can live forever if you want to You can live forever if you want to You can live forever if you want to Ancient mass And a patient man Made a deal Shook their hands He flew around And found a kid Who said “please” Now he sees Nothing’s right, nothing’s wrong Either here or you’re gone All it takes is a clear, keen view And you can live forever if you want to you can live forever if you want to you can live forever if you want to you can live forever if you want to you can live forever if you want to you can live forever if you want to (You know I can give you a chance And show you how to remain And you’ll never be the same)

You took my money and you broke my mirrors You couldn't spend another second here And so you jumped and left for good And I don't blame you it's a shitty place The mirrors are broken and the food in the fridge tastes Like whoever lives here has no money to spend at all But oh, I guess that's probably my fault God damn I think I'm starting to remember I haven't been outside in years God damn I think it's been a half a decade Don't think I can get out of here I'm locked in Locked in and blocked away from everything Everything I wanna see So I started watching old indie films And I swear, I swear, I swear that I saw my friend in one Eight years old ten years ago He was an extra in the background in a coffee shop scene You see it all lines up and now I swear I wanna be in a movie, wanna see myself in there My heads is all “Hey man, you're gonna need a little patience” But do I really know? 'Cause God damn This place is gonna keep me waiting It's got it written all inside God damn You left and knew it was for staying You knew you’d never have to die And god damn Now you’re a picture in a frame That no one's ever gonna move And god damn I think if I was offered that I’d probably take it too

Limited to your hands You thought you should explore your options Stuck in a breaking trance But no one can make make it past The fast approaching future Or so you had been told Options all thrown away You thought you could make it work And some luck could make you stay But oh, you would need to wait So when the guy in the cloak came down with his games You won I had my eyes closed shut and then I had them open That's one less time I’ll ever have them open again You caught me at 1am In a sad old crumbly suburb And you came down from your cloud Your face was the shape of ages And you did not say a word But your white eyes, they were loud I spoke: Doesn't it all get bleak after so much time trapped in your sky hearing everything said? You only shook your head I tried and I couldn't buy it So you gave it away instead (And I) I won’t be waiting here much longer (So I) I wound’t call it a stupid descision Your eyes are closed shut, open but I’ve been told That your flowing blood is warm, it won't go cold ‘Til everything else does These thoughts are filling me And these thoughts are killing me But they can’t Now my life is a string of stories so long That at some point the stories will fade ‘Til one day They are nothing but a collection of abstract letters and words (I’ll get used to it) “My eyes are closed shut, open, closed shut, open Eyes are closed shut, open, closed shut, open Eyes are closed shut, open, closed shut, open My eyes are closed shut, open, closed shut, open” x8

I was always a very reserved kid in my high school and middle school years. Kinda kept to myself, did my own thing. I was a bit of an introvert back then. Less of one now, but I don't know. And any time anyone (for the most part) came up to me and tried to talk, I wouldn't make eye contact, I wouldn't try to initiate any conversation, I’d just quickly acknowledge you and move on as fast as I could. It wasn't a great thing to be doing now that I think back to it, but that’s just what my whole deal was, I guess I want to be able to trace all that back, like that part of my personality back to a starting point from my youth or something, I just don’t really remember though. Anyways, A few years later I was 18 years old and I had recently moved out to go live on my own in the city and go to college. I was staying at this cheap dorm on the campus. Um, anyways, It was October or something on a Wednesday night, and I was driving home after breaking up with my first girlfriend. I was feeling angry with a lot of things and a little impulsive, so I pulled over at a grocery store and bought a party sized thing of quinoa salad. It was the first thing I saw when I walked in. So I walked back up to my car, keys in one hand, quinoa salad in the other, And right before I opened the door to jump in I heard a man behind me say my name. I turned around to respond and he was just looking at me with an exasperated look on his face, And I recognized him, I was just unsure of where from and I said “hello sir” or something like that. He just kept looking at me in complete silence. Eventually he just turned and walked away and I didn’t really know what to think of that so I just hopped in my car and started driving back to school. And… yeah. On my way back to the campus I had to go through this industrial development that the highway went through. And as I drove, I noticed this 2 story pub on my left hand side with a balcony up top. I had seen this place before on my commutes. It was a nice looking place. I’d never been there but it was cool. There was this sculpture of a guy they put on the balcony for decoration, and I recognized the sculpture this time - he looked exactly like the guy in the parking lot from earlier. I was kind of shocked. He gave that same look he gave me to the buildings in front of him. That was my last time driving on that part of the highway. Something about the image has kept me from going back. Anyways, I got to the housing complex about 20 minutes later, shaken a bit by what had happened to me over the course of the day. I walked into my dorm, shut the door behind me, and before sitting down to open up my laptop, I took one big scoop of quinoa salad and ate it directly from the container. *nose exhale laugh”

Ooh, camera in your brain Can't tell the difference, now everything looks the same But that's OK, as you know ‘Cause your person brain is a metronome Ooh, mirrors around your face Don’t know the difference and everything looks the same But don’t you move, it’ll erase And the mirrors will turn around just to compensate Sat by a windowsill, the glass by your arm You put your key down and it acted as your alarm When in your sleep The next day The key fell from the ledge and it hit your face Jim Burns, I’ve known you for a million hours You’ve known me long enough to know why I can’t stand the sour Taste of the feeling that comes with a road When it goes along forever But it never gets old, and oh, What does it take to erase it? What does it take to replace the things that you took from the cup? What does it take to replace it And when everything spills out, how do you clean it up? Ooh, camera in your brain Can't tell the difference, now everything looks the same But that's OK, as you know ‘Cause your person brain is a metronome Shot by the trees along the edge of the grass Stretching always upwards to the sky like they need it to last And then I felt It go through And I stumbled to the ground and my branches grew, Now I’m A hundred feet taller than I was that day Jim Burns, you were running and I heard you say Something about Coming down And looking at the things that in your infinite life you’ve found It cut right through like a razor blade Straight on through like a razor blade It cut right through like a razor blade And everything came crashing back towards the ground I stood up in to the open grass Thrown back by the gravity in to the last Stretch of time I’ll have When each thing seen is a season passed

I don’t think you’ll remember me You used to call me god I think Yeah I thought it was kind of weird too You're now beneath a blue june evening sky With a scared look in your eyes that you can’t erase And three trees behind you

Where am I and who on earth are you Said the kids to me in the bare old living room When I came on through The kids already knew I was there before my life had turned to thirst But my face and name wouldn’t make themselves to words I wore black on a Sunday afternoon Took the jailbreak sunshine from the moon Let it all sink through So when it gets to you It’ll hold it’s past and you’ll know I had it first So you won’t go insane before the bubble bursts I will not know when the black takes hold my eyes And I can not step with a caution in my stride But I swear to god That when he gets the nod I will stare death down as he pulls me underwater And when he lets go I will not swim away When he lets go I will not swim away

So a god takes all my picks As I sit off to the side And if there's one thing that he taught me Its that I have no taste for the past and it all looks the same to me Just bittersweet and wistful and better And it ties me together It ties me together It ties me together He says “I’m a candle in your room Candle for the time That you shook hands with the devil A candle to fine tune your mind so you know that you're helpless In lockdown and reading the letters they make you a string in an intricate sweater And they tie you together So it's much darker than it was a month ago Ice from the death of the breath I breath will surround me Like the fuzz of awareness When I wake up (I wake up) x4 Like a cycle of nighttime and daytime and nighttime But I won't go to sleep yet I won't go to sleep yet I won’t go to sleep yet On my lawn at five You can see me at my prime See me walk in a straight line See dance around at the sight of the sunrise In autumn it’s lightless and see through To help you talk to the dead I'll talk to the dead I'll talk to the dead ‘Cause we're decent people, you and I And decent people never die decent people, you and I decent people never die we're decent people, you and I And decent people never die decent people, you and I decent people never die They walk alone On so many different roads They say "if there's one path that I won't take, It's a pale white life of spiritual things and divinity." But the others, they stand there unshaken I think they might have found something They might have found something Yeah they might have found something

I'll never forget The time that I saw your face again Two eyes in an ocean Of stillness and unresolved regret I knew I was dreaming But it all felt so real Everything I was feeling there Most of the time I stood like a backdrop on a wall So as to try and not die But one day I woke up and you were right there “You know I can give you a chance” Is what you said as you stared And my lungs kicked in, and I felt For the first time, the pressure of the air When we were just kids All things felt indefinite We’d smile brightly our innocence Into the pits and the shadows But one day the shadows shone back And contorted your face And I followed soon replaced By the notion of an eternity I got back last June, wouldn’t close my eyes So I would see every second passed by So I could tell when it was coming Like a deer in the headlights Of a driverless train What good does it do To try and make sense of anything If it goes regardless of you And at some point it all fizzles out as a rain Wintertime and all I think is fake And every picture I am in is paint On a canvas I have put inside my brain Too big to see the end and too small to keep around It’s too small to keep around

I was just waking up Laying down on a throne With my head on a pillow In the shape of a globe And the print on that fabric, all blue and all green, was softer than anything I was thinking through notes in a half filled out sketchbook With tears in the pages and and a hotel room pen I have so much to say in a 3 minute run time But hey that's ok 'cause I'll say all I can I was swimming through dust on the day that I found you Picking things from the air as they flew their way past And the wind was so strong that it blew you right to me But the wind was so strong I didn't think you would last Nonetheless you had stopped right as soon as you saw me And you asked me my plans and I said I had none You didn't have a response but a strong sense of urgency Like a river of noise, and I hadn't met anyone With the look in their eyes that you had when you opened them It was just like a glimpse of a different place I was seeing some colors that should not exist in a bright compilation of all the things i had missed And it all shone like silver You were just like candle in the black of the night In a big lightless system no sun and no stars Just a complex of planets all circling each other Till they one day collide leaving nothing behind You were just like a pillow in the shape of a globe All blue and all green And softer than anything